Real Beauty Is posed this question on Facebook: What would your day be like today if you lived inside a place of really knowing your worth? What does that look like for you?
So I thought about this because I don’t often think about my own worth. As a matter of fact, when I have in the past I’ve thought I’m pretty worthless. But I’ve discovered that’s not the case. I always used to tell my daughters that simply because they exist means they are worthwhile human beings. I suppose I should apply that to myself as well.
And thinking about my daughters, I believe I have great worth as a mother. I haven’t always been the best mother (how many of us really are?), but they love me and know I’ll always be there for them.
I’ve been with my beloved for almost three years now, so he obviously thinks I’m a worthwhile person. I bake bread, brownies and cookies for him. We have a lot of fun cooking together. As a matter of fact we have a lot of fun doing mundane things together. I rarely left his side when he got fired, and was there to celebrate with him when he got a new job. I’ve helped him move goats and plant a garden, and I’ve learned a lot about my own resilience living in a rural area (I grew up in Southern California).
I have worth to others online, being supportive of those who also have a mental illness. I love to share in their triumphs as well as trials.
And I have worth to my kitties, caring for them, loving them.
Bipolar disorder does not make me worthless. It’s just another facet of who I am.